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Nico's Disaster or Soul Revival?

"i'm so tired" we said.

that felt good to be tired in a restaurant where everyone stared at our touches. the little boy gave me creeps though. so i let go. But not of you.

I wish i could teach him the tricks you do on me that make me want to love you inappropriately, only sometimes. haha. but i know he'll have to learn them on his own. the thought of that makes me feel safe. for some reason.

i don't want to keep writing about my fear of his having changed. i love him. and i will continue to do so for the rest of this month and a half. and beyond.

i just. need to hear from him. Emily tells me, "I don't know what i would do if i couldn't talk to travis. I'd go crazy. I can barely go more than a few hours."

And what she says is true, i've witnessed her travis withdrawls.

So I guess I am as strong as the shimmering fish tells me I am. On the outside looking in, it seems I have to be.

i'm writing a story.

10:27 p.m. - 2004-08-23

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