laffinkid's Diaryland Diary

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In Fear And Faith-Circa Survive

"In Fear And Faith"

"Can we last through the winter?
The water's starting to freeze.
The only one who remembers
Taking the wrong step, falling in front of me.
This body's already aging.
These nights are all ready long.
And if I last through the winter,
I swear to you now, I won't call.

Congratulations, go home now.

Will we last through the winter?
Will we make it to see?
I never wanted a partner and I never loved you,
Now you are free to leave.
This heart is already frozen,
I can't remember to fall.
And if I last through the winter,
I swear to you now, I won't call.

Congratulations, go home now.

It's too late, it's too late, they won't let go.
Follow five footsteps through that open door, open door.
It's too late, it's too late, they won't let go.
Follow five footsteps through that open door, open door.

It must be buried under the heart
That makes this pace consistent.
You'll find it torn, that gate's been opened?
I've been wondering if you've been real with us.

It's too late
It's too late, it's too late, they won't let go.
Follow five footsteps through that open door, open door.
It's too late, it's too late, they won't let go.
Follow five footsteps through that open door, open door.

It's start, stop and go you've been dying for, you've been dying for."

And if I last through the winter, it will be a miracle. An amazing conversation about our amazing love pushed us into botg a positive and a negative direction. "Married Friends" was the term I used to illustrate the portrait of our marriage as I see it for the next 2 or so years.

I don't want to be secretary. I don't want to lie in emails, fake-positive. Fake-Love. I don't want to make believe that I'm not completely numb to him, and I said all this over wires into his ears. And he completely agreed.

Our love is. .. .. Amazing.

But.

It hurts too much to try to live it every day, when I don't live it every day. Like a boomerang, we will come right back to the hand that threw us out into the sky, when this is over.

The question now is...can we last through the winter?

12:34 p.m. - 2006-11-27

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