laffinkid's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- two "I am human and I need to be loved. Just like everybody else does." Today it must begin. I am going to have to go to bed late [because of work] and get up early because of errands. I have to get my shit together, I hate last minute details and I want to make sure that every little loose end is tied. So I have to get up early tommorow to pay bills, and make phone calls, and take clothes to buffalo to possibly trade for better ones. I don't want to let go so quickly. I feel my heartstring latching on to the people I love here, anchoring deeper. But I'm going to have to yank those anchors out and hope that the scars will remind me..and bring me back here to smile again. But lives scatter in the wind...so who knows what distance tommorow's hurricane will cause. Doomed to be the new girl. Always that new girl. Making friends and losing firends. It's a glamorous life. Beautiful one you have to fly your own path before you can guide another's. You know it. We have had the conversation of your lion being a young soul before, beaten but not learned. He needs many many more lifetimes to catch up with you, even before your wings your mind was set in another universe. Perhaps it's time to let him grow. Let him go. But not too terribly far away from your eyes.
more later. 6:34 p.m. - 2007-01-02 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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